By God’s Grace…we are able to celebrate Christmas without Katelyn

December 22, 2008 by Audreys 

Christmas is a time to be joyful, to spend time with your family, to tuck your children in at night while you read the story of Jesus’ birth to them and shadows from the Christmas lights dance along the walls.  It is not a time for sorrow, it is a time to celebrate the gift of God’s son born that night so many years ago.  So, how are we coping, when our plans for spending our first Christmas with Katelyn have been changed?  It’s not easy, we will tell you that.  But, we pray each day for Jesus to give us enough grace to get through each minute of each day without her. 

Some of the things we are struggling with the most during this Christmas season are:

1.     Hearing a small infant cry

2.     Passing by countless children of all ages as they run around in outdoor play areas

3.     Listening to the giggles of small children as they make angels in the snow 

4.     Thinking back to how we imagined our first Christmas would be with Katelyn

5.     Remembering that Christmas Day marks 19 weeks since we lost our little girl. 

Some of the things we are doing to avoid these struggles are:

1.     Picturing Katelyn making snow angels in Heaven

2.     Knowing that Katelyn is spending Christmas with Jesus and the angels

3.     Remembering that although we lost Katelyn, she went straight into the arms of Jesus

We hold onto the verse in Ecclesiastes 3:1 “For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven”.  There is a season for grief, and there is a season for joy.  We are choosing to let Jesus fill our hearts with joy this Christmas.    Sure we still grieve, but it is for us, not for Katelyn.  She was stillborn, but she was Still Born.  She is in Heaven with Jesus.  What more could a little girl ask for? 


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