E-mails
February 25, 2009 by Audreys · Leave a Comment
I just came across your site and as a fellow believer in our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ, I was greatly touched by it! What a beautiful way to take a tragedy and bring the Lord’s comfort and compassion into it! I am so touched by your strength and faith…I pray I would have that kind of faith should I endure such a loss. You have a powerful testimony of His grace.
… Would you mind if I share your website with our families that have experienced the same loss?
My prayers go forthwith, I truly can not imagine your loss.
In His name & for His Glory
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I seen your site and think you have done a wonderful thing for honoring your baby and to assist other families facing similar situations. Beautiful site though… thank you, from another angel’s mommy
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I came across your wonderful, amazing, beautiful daughters story on NILMDTS. I can not in words describe my gratitude to you. Your words of encouragement on this website are a healing balm. I know My Isaac & Hannah are rejoicing in Heaven with my beautiful Jesus. But its so comforting to hear the truth from someone who’s been through more than I think I could bear. I was 5 months with Isaac & 7 months later lost Hannah Joy at 6 months in the womb. My heart is still so very wounded but God speaks to me, He holds me, He takes my hand & leads me. I thank God for you, for your family, for your sweet Katelyn Grace. Fearfully & Wonderfully made.
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Praise God for you both and your hearts to share your difficult story. There is no doubt that God can and WILL use this for his glory. I pray that He will comfort you moment by moment and I will also be praying that your ministry grows wings and becomes a place of healing and salvation for others.
Thank you for opening your hearts.
ps- I will be passing your website on to a friend of a friend who lost her new born son.
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The website is beautiful and your story…is so beautiful. Your testimony of the goodness of God puts me in awe. I have been so deeply blessed by reading your story and knowing you. I will continue to hold you close in my prayers!
May the Lord Bless you and keep you, may He make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you: the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.
In Him,
Encouragement We Have Received
February 25, 2009 by Audreys · Leave a Comment
I have heard it said many times “God is never early, He is never late, He is always right on time.” That rings true even in relation to this website. It is the quality of responses we receive that matters, not the quantity. However, there are times when we doubt if we are truly helping other parents with this site. It is during those times that we receive an e-mail of encouragement that proves to us that God is at work on this site. When Peter was walking on the water towards Jesus in Matthew 14:31, his faith started to waver as he watched the rushing waves and began to sink and cry out to Jesus to help him. What did Jesus do? “Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him.”You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
We need to remind ourselves over and over that Jesus is in control, we just need to believe it.
We wanted to share some of the e-mails we received. We hope they will minister to you as they continue to minister to us.
We Grieve for Ourselves
February 24, 2009 by Audreys · Leave a Comment
I looked outside my window today and tears came to my eyes. The sun was bright as it reflected off the mounds of snow in the yard. Though it is not here yet, Spring is coming soon. My first thought was ‘here comes another season without Katelyn’. She would have been 6 months old now; old enough for first words, long stroller walks along the beach, and high-pitched giggles as I would lean down so her feet could touch the lake water. I longed for that more than anything when I saw other parents with their babies at the beach last Spring and Summer. What we have instead is a tree by the beach dedicated to Katelyn Grace.
In my heart I know Katelyn is in Heaven with Jesus, but my mother’s heart longs to see her. I know my husband and I will be reunited with her one day, and that gives us more peace than anything else in this world. Paul states it perfectly in his letter to the church in Thessalonica. In 2 Thessalonians 4:13-14 he wrote “But we do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about those who are asleep, that you may not grieve as others do who have no hope. For since we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so, through Jesus, God will bring with him those who have fallen asleep..”
We have that hope, therefore although we grieve, we grieve for ourselves. We don’t grieve for Katelyn because she is already in the place where we want to be when our lives come to an end on this earth; we grieve for ourselves because we miss her. We do know we will see her again and that hope alone is sufficient.
It’s times like these when I wonder about the mothers and fathers who lost their babies and yet have no hope. I can’t even imagine what they must be thinking or feeling. Without hope, what do they have to comfort them? Without knowing that Jesus will reunite them one day if they follow in His ways and believe in Him, what else is there?
So to all of you who are reading this and do not have that hope, and are suffering through your loss on your own, I want you to know that it is not too late. Jesus said in Matthew 11:28, “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Our hope is that you will come to Jesus for the peace and comfort that only He can offer.
We don’t have all the answers, but we have the truth, and the hope that comes with it. It would be an honor to share what Jesus has done in our lives with anyone who does not have that hope yet. We pray that you will find it in Jesus. And if you cannot seem to find Him on your own, let us know and we will lead you to Him.
Jesus is smiling as He holds our babies right now. Always remember, they were stillborn, but they were STILL BORN.
King David’s Baby
February 9, 2009 by Audreys · Leave a Comment
“David therefore sought God on behalf of the child. And David fasted and went in and lay all night on the ground. And the elders of his house stood beside him, to raise him from the ground, but he would not, nor did he eat food with them. On the seventh day the child died. And the servants of David were afraid to tell him that the child was dead, for they said, “Behold, while the child was yet alive, we spoke to him, and he did not listen to us. How then can we say to him the child is dead? He may do himself some harm.” But when David saw that his servants were whispering together, David understood that the child was dead. And David said to his servants, “Is the child dead?” They said, “He is dead.” Then David arose from the earth and washed and anointed himself and changed his clothes. And he went into the house of the LORD and worshiped. He then went to his own house. And when he asked, they set food before him, and he ate. Then his servants said to him, “What is this thing that you have done? You fasted and wept for the child while he was alive; but when the child died, you arose and ate food.” He said, “While the child was still alive, I fasted and wept, for I said, ‘Who knows whether the LORD will be gracious to me, that the child may live?’ But now he is dead. Why should I fast? Can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he will not return to me.”” 2 Samuel 12:16-23
This portion of scripture begs the question, why didn’t God save David’s baby? After all, he pleaded with God, he fasted, he spent 6 days praying for God to change His mind and save his son. These verses were preceded by David’s affair with Bathsheba, a married woman, and his successful plot to kill her husband so he could have her as his own. God was well aware of David’s sin, and Nathan the prophet was sent to tell David that his son would die. God’s punishment for David’s sin was the loss of his son.
For days David called out to the Lord for His mercy, and was inconsolable until the baby died. Once the baby died, David’s grief-stricken heart seemed to be at peace. It is hard to comprehend until you read the last verse when David verbalizes what he believes to be true. “Can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he will not return to me”
David realized that the child’s suffering was over, and that his son was now in Heaven with his Heavenly Father. David did not turn his back on God for this loss, rather he accepted his ‘discipline’, confident that he will see his son again. David knew that there was nothing that he could do to convince God to bring his son back to him, so rather than continuing to grieve, he showed his inner peace by those simple words. “I shall go to him…”
If there is any verse that you keep close to your heart when you go through the hard days, deeply mourning the loss of your child, be comforted by the knowledge that through the saving grace of Jesus Christ, you can and will see your baby again.
You might be asking, does that mean that God took away my baby because of my sin? The answer is absolutely not. Even as Christians we might struggle with that possibility and start blaming ourselves. No matter whether or not we find out what caused our baby to die, we often shift blame to ourselves. It is important to tell yourself over and over again that it is not your fault; that your loss was not a judgment from God for your sins; that God did not cause your baby to die.
David knew he would pay the price of his son in atonement for his sins. But that was before Jesus came to live among us. Jesus Christ came here to save us and ultimately died for our sins. Jesus bridged the gap between God and man. Once we confess our sins to our Father and repent, He is faithful and just to forgive us. So, if you are trying to find a reason, or a sin that God is punishing you for, wipe that thought from your mind. Instead, pray for peace and God’s mighty strength to get you though this trial, not around it.
Always remember, our babies were stillborn, but they were Still Born.
Lamentations
February 1, 2009 by Audreys · 2 Comments
The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
“The LORD is my portion,” says my soul,
“therefore I will hope in him.”
The LORD is good to those who wait for him,
to the soul who seeks him.
It is good that one should wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD. Lamentations 3: 22-26
When Jeremiah was writing this poetic book, he was feeling a bit alienated by God. He was grieving the loss of Jerusalem to the Babylonians. The destruction of Jerusalem was the result of God’s judgment for the Israelites’ sin. Jeremiah knows this. It was not Jeremiah’s sin that caused the resulting judgment on Jerusalem. He felt this loss very personally though. Even as he grieved, He called out to God. He knew that God is a God of grace and able to restore anything or anyone.
In our situation, we were at first feeling a bit alienated by God as well. Our grief for the loss of our daughter was overwhelming. Our own personal sin did not cause Katelyn to die. This was not an act of judgment by God. We know that. But we also know that we live in a sinful world and the loss of a stillborn baby with no medical explanation is due to an imperfect world. Although that is very hard to accept, we have prayed and received peace from God that we don’t need to know the answer. Knowing she is in Heaven with Him is enough.
Jeremiah’s strong faith through his experience has taught us that even though we have lost our daughter, it is only temporary; Scott and I will one day see her again. Meeting Katelyn with Jesus is our prayer, and through the saving blood of Jesus Christ we know we will.
We have also learned that waiting on the Lord is vital to keeping our hope alive. We will be restored as a family in Heaven one day. Until then, we trust completely in Him. What a great example of waiting and trusting in the Lord that Jeremiah is. It is an example that we try to follow.
God is the light in the midst of the darkness, and our hope is in Him!
